Suicide is a horrible thing that grips the world. Yet somehow, even though in America alone one person dies of suicide every 15 minutes, there is this stigma attatched to the point that families who have lost someone this way feels shame and alone.

It’s this thing hidden away, not talked about, not allowed out into the open. People shy away from the topic, and leave those left behind feeling as if they are adrift with no support in sight. Those left behind when someone they love commits suicide are left angry, confused, and lost. No answers are ever good enough, no reason why will ever feel right because the person who should be answering said question is not there to provide it.

It’s one of those things that families and friends feel they must defend and appologize for. They feel they will be looked upon as if it was THEIR fault, that they could have stopped it, should have known it was going to happen. Which isn’t always true. Many who chose suicide don’t always leave any warning, until later, in which hindsight is always crystal clear.

Suicide strikes all demographics – every race, gender, economic class. It leaves a wake of disaster in its wake, with those reeling from the death left to clean up the destruction caused.

With one person commiting suicide every 15 minutes in the USA, there seems to be a disconnect. Some tried to get help, and failed. Some didn’t know how to get it.

In my own situation, it was something I, nor any other family or friend, thought would happen. We never thought momma would do something so rash and final. But when she was missing, and so was the hand gun, I had a sinking feeling, a knowing, that she wasn’t coming home. I fought with many over the subject, and it was the worst time in my life to ever find I was right.

Because of this, I have felt that there needs to be more awareness. There needs to be more “out there” for others to know. Other families both need to know there is help, and there is support. I’ve learned the more families who are considered a “survivor” of suicide – ie those left behind when a loved one commits it, talk about it and are open and honest, the more people will be willing to seek help and support.

And out of the hurt, anger and loss, we have decided the best way to honor momma this year. Every year she was missing, and on certain other milestones, we held an event to raise awareness for missing persons and to try and keep her name in the light so that many would be on the look out. Now that she has been recovered, and we know the way she died, we felt we needed to get involvd.

This year, one day before the one year anniversary of momma’s recovery, is the OUT OF THE DARKNESS WALK for suicide prevention – held by the American Foundation of Suicide Prevention. In Erie, PA on October 13th, 2012 at noon we will be walking as TEAM WHERE IS SUSAN RYAN DOT COM.

For now we are asking for those near the area to come walk with us. Those who aren’t if you could please donate to our team as we raise funds to help suicide prevention programs through out the country. Below are the links. If you can, please help. Any amount helps, even $1.  Please share our donation/registration page with your social networks, the more awareness there is, the better. Our hope is that another family will never have to go through what we did, being left behind in the wake of a suicide.